Life had become complicated lately. Not only have I not been able to finish any of my works or any of the books I'm reading, but I must also admit that I probably won't so soon either. I'm officially a senior now, which is taking all my spare time, for since offical school attendance is ending for me and my classmates soon, the teachers(I swear!) have devised a plan how to kill us before exams start so they wouldn't get a headache from our ignorance themselves. We've started to recieve less homework, but on the same time, more tests.

For me all this is shadowed by religious doubts and worries(don't ask, seriously. I think I'm going insane) and by the immense shock revieved from another film. As with "Atonement" it is based on a book, but this time I have not read it, nor am I planning to. The theme is too painful. "The Duchess" based on a book called "Georgia, the Duchess of Devonshire", has much too cruelly invaded my brain with how unfair can life be and just how repressed women have been in the history. It all saddens be the more, because I know reason for this lies in the Bible and was justified, but on the same time, I am religious as well and my interpretation of the Bible literate.

Georgia, the Duchess of Devonshire, is a book based on true story. This woman was very beautiful, married very young, was never loved by her husband, was even raped by him as well as cheated with her best friend, who he called to live with them, had to rase his illegimate daughter, suffer under mental terror her whole life and eventually die. All this in the name of a son, who himself never married on had children. Worst of all, this son was concieved in the result of brutal rape.

On the same time, Georgia did love herself and was deeply loved in return... BUT another man. She even got a daughter from him, Eliza, whom her husband forced her to give away. He forced her to leave him and everything she ever loved. He never understood just how powerful and smart Georgia was. Having become the Duchess, she became one of the most powerful women in England, being both the icon for fashion, but also surprisingly powerful in politics - in something where women at the time were not allowed to interfere.

I'm glad things have changed nowadays and no man may treat someone like that, but still... Georgia did nothing wrong besides not being able to give birth to a son as the first child and that's not something a woman can control. She did nothing wrong besides being a fragile female and that's what she got: a mansion, many beautiful children, power may beyond the power any woman would've been able to gain these days and a husband, who never cared.

"All my life, I've been fighting my way upstream." (The Duchess of Devonshire)
It was also said in the film that Georgia was loved by everybody besides her husband. I know I would've adored her, did in the film and I adored Keira Knightley's acting. The part was even too complicated, too phycological.